I Don't Care

I try to make it through my life, in my way, there's you
I try to make it through these lies, and that's all I do

Just don't deny it,
Don't try to fight this ,and deal with it
and that's just part of it,

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
Just go and leave this all behind
Cause i swear (i swear),i don't care

I try to make you see my side
Always trying to stay in line
But your eyes see right through
That's all they do

I'm getting buried in this place
I got no room your in my face
don't say anything just go away

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
Just go and leave this all behind
Cause i swear (i swear) i don't care

Life changing everything
You won't be left for me
Life changing everything
You won't be left for me

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care, I don't care
Just and and leave this all behind
Cause i swear(i swear)i don't care

If you were dead or still alive
I don't care(i don't care), I don't care(i don't care)
Just go ahead and leave this all behind
I don't care(i swear), I don't care
At all...


-Apocalyptica-



How could it be so easy?....Too easy.....
I just don't care anymore...I, myself can't believe it neither...
But that's it....Hm..........(??) 

Apologize

I'm holding on your rope,
Got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down, but wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall
Take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But it's nothin new
I loved you with a fire red-
Now it's turning blue, and you say...
"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
It's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-

I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

by : One Republic ft. Timbaland

Hanya Terlintas Saja - Part 13

Well, ini satu lagi peristiwa penting ga penting...tapi terlintas begitu saja.
Kali ini tentang "Ramalan"........well, gw sih percaya ga percaya sama yg namanya ramalan...tp klo sebuah ramalan bisa membantu memotivasi kita agar lebih baik, gw sih setuju dan percaya aja deh...hahah


Gw baru aja mengakhiri hubungan dengan seseorang baru2 ini....yeah..
Sedih? Ga sih...
Benci? Ga lah...
Kecewa? Jelas....
( bukan penyesalan atas apa yang terjadi sih...tp kecewa karena cewe itu ternyata udah berubah...menghilangkan segala sesuatu yang pernah membuat gw menyayangi dia.  
Yeah, I had already lost her months ago, when she started to try to turning back to her past, left me with a doubt about our future way )


...too bad it has to be end this way...but it's alrite...
...everything happens for reason....


Nah, tiba2 gw keinget ama teman gw, si Tania...
Dulu, dia pernah ngeramal gw....sekali lagi, percaya ga percaya sih. Tp gw percaya dia karena dia adalah teman baik gw.
Waktu ngeramal tentang jodoh, dia bilang:
"Setelah ( ramalan ) ini, lu akan ketemu dan berhubungan dengan seseorang yang baru. But you won't make it with her...Baru setelah orang ini, lu akan bertemu the one lu. You'll make it with her...dan lu akan nikah muda."

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OK, memang percaya ga percaya sih...tp kalo ditilik kronologinya...kok kynya apa yg pernah dia ramal, mulai terbukti kenyataannya.
Gw baru saja mengakhiri hubungan dengan "the girl that I won't-make-it-through", di umur 24 tahun 6 bulan.
Dan gw saat ini sedang aktif bertemu banyak orang baru.
Bukan ga mungkin gw akan segera bertemu my true "the one".
..........it's like time it's tickin' out


Lagian menurut salah satu teman baik gw yang lain -si Fadhiasty- , ramalan si Tania ini suka banyak benarnya.
( Asty sendiri salah satu yang udah mencoba kebenaran hasil ramalan Tania...hasil ramalan jelek, dan terbukti pula....hahahahahahah )


Tapi balik ke pemikiran logis gw....
...ya...manusia cm bisa menerawang, merencanakan, berusaha...tp semua udah ada yang mengatur.
Apa yang terjadi hari esok ga akan bisa kita tahu.

Kalo emang gw akan segera menikah, well, sebetulnya bakal jadi beban tersendiri buat gw..
Gw malah harus kerja keras; buat biaya nikah, nge DP rumah, dan berumah tangga kelak
(Hh....waktu untuk "bersenang-senang" gw serasa makin sedikit )


Tapi apapun itu, semua memamg demi kehidupan gw ke depan kelak.
Gw emang sebetulnya berencana nikah muda sih...hahah...( kepengaruh saudara2 gw yg udah pada merit )
Yah, anggap aja ramalan Tania itu benar, maka gw harus prepare untuk ke depannya

Work hard, work smart...
Nabung...
Menikmati saat2 lajang gw...
Tapi juga...sambil mencari my soulmate yg mungkin memang udah makin dekat ini....hahah




Gw udah dapat "petunjuk jalan", now it's time to move on! Cheers!!

A Night To Remember

Well....it's almost two years...
-20090602-

Two years since that day...
Two years since I confessed it to you...
Two years since I started "a new day"...
Two years since I became what I am today...

Still remember that day,
How we laughed together...
How we shared our thoughts together...
How you smiled...


Tonight...it's a night to remember


But this is it...
It's all just a memory now
Maybe to be remembered...
But not to be rewritten.....

Thanks for everything :)
Thanks for giving me a lesson about life...about love
You'll always be there...as a memory, as a long time friend
And I'll move on...


But...just tonight...it's a night to remember



P.S. ; Can't wait for your next novel...good luck, my dear friend....wish u all the best.
 

Hanya Terlintas Saja - Part 12

Satu kejadian yang unik dalam kehidupan gw telah terjadi..
Well, cuma kejadian simpel...tapi buat gw cukup mengena dan bermakna...

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Akhir-akhir ini, banyak masalah yang mencuat dan datang bertubi-tubi dalam alur kehidupan gw..

Banyak ketidakpastian...pertanyaan...keingintahuan...kekecewaan...perpecahan...dan semuanya seakan menjadi hiasan dalam bingkai hidup gw terakhir ini..



Sore tadi, bertambah lah satu permasalahan dalam hidup gw..
Menambah banyak beban pikiran ini aja...

Tapi ditengah-tengah semua kegalauan gw itu...sewaktu gw merasa benar-benar "down",  "alone".... tiba-tiba mengalunlah sebuah lagu lama dari GN'R, yang judulnya "Patience"

 Classic line up of Gun's N Roses

Entah dari mana lagu itu mengalun, tiba-tiba aja muncul di tengah keramaian...dan langsung mengisi kesepian gw..
(Gw sedang jalan di sekitar Jl Merdeka sore tadi. Dan buat anak Bandung, pasti tau lah rame nya jalan itu...hahah)


....well, itu lagu terfavorit gw dari band ini...
....lagu tadi  seakan menjadi backsound bagi gw dalam segala permasalahan gw...
....dan tiba-tiba gw seakan dihibur...dikuatkan...untuk "patience"...bersabar...


"...said woman take it slow, it'll work itself out fine...all we need is just a little patience..."


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Well, walau hanya selintas, tapi gw akhirnya sadar: gw harus kuat dalam menghadapi dan menyikapi permasalahan gw
Kalau gw menyerah sekarang, ga ada artinya pengorbanan gw selama ini
Gw pasti survive !
Gw sudah mengusahakan yang terbaik, dan gw hanya perlu bersabar sekarang...
...bersabar, berusaha, dan juga berdoa....


Akan datang hari dimana gw akan menemukan jawaban dari semua permasalahan gw ini

Selama gw mau berusaha menyelesaikannya dengan kepala dingin...apa yang gw perbuat ga akan sia-sia...gw yakin itu sekarang



...and all I need is just a little patience...

-Hanya Terlintas Saja- Life Goes On

Well, akhirnya....
Akhirnya gw masuk ke dunia kerja. Jadi seorang "pegawai"..."junior architect"..."drafter"...
Apapun...akhirnya gw jatuh juga di dunia arsitek. Kontraktor tepatnya...
Sekarang waktunya meniti karir, merajut masa depan.....jadi kontraktor? Why not!....Hahah....

Sekarang saatnya untuk mandiri.
Tidak untuk bergantung...tidak juga untuk dibebani...
It's time to be "alone"...
A time of my own...

Well, walaupun...
Terkadang terasa sendirian...kesepian...kehilangan...
Ga ada lagi teman dan sahabat untuk berbagi...( yeah, we have our own ways now... )
Ga ada lagi senyuman gadis yang dulu selalu gw rindukan...( too bad, we couldn't make it... )


The shadow is my only friend now


But...it's all right
Inilah jalan hidup yang sudah tertulis buat gw....sebuah bingkai kehidupan yang tersedia...
Tinggal bagaimana gw akan melukisnya...

Gw ga bisa melihat masa depan...
Gw cuma bisa membentuknya saja..dan berharap...
Tanpa perlu melihat dan menyesali yang telah lalu...



....and life goes on....

Wherever You Will Go

So lately, been wondering
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face

If a great wave shall fall
And fall upon us all
Then between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own?

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
A way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days

If a great wave shall fall
And fall upon us all
Well then I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

Run away with my heart
Run away with my hope
Run away with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way, way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go


-by The Calling-